The pursuit of happiness

It's been a very long time since the last time I wrote on this blog. 4 months exactly. IT's about time to be back. I believe in pauses. The pauses are as much needed sometimes than the action. The same way the white between the letters or the space between the words is as essential as the black of the letters or the words themselves. 

I realized that there is no evil. The evil doesn't exist only the ego exists. I learned recently that the two worst traits of character is anger and loftiness. Anger is born when things don't go the way we intend them and loftiness out of the sense of our own importance. There is no evil because G-d is one and all existence is born from Him and depends of Him. We are our own creator of hell or paradise. 

Watched Lost for the first time lately the whole 6 seasons. Really interesting serie. So many levels of time, of space, of life situation, family situation, realities, dimensions going on all intertwined. Great cast. The roles were created for them. They chose an actor and imagined his role from him or her. The scenario were changed for them. Made me think of Kabbalah. For some reason. 

Getting more following on instagram, so much more effective than Facebook. Changed the music section on the website. Looking much better, getting there. Asked a few more djs to do mixes for MBRTRB. Doesn't matter the length of the step as long as it is forward. It is a time of change now. I have to find a new job and I have to find a new place. But when there is change, it is because it is time to change level. It ends only to begin again. 

Respect and other subject

So for those who don't know according to the jewish calendar we're in 5776. The word of October will be Respect and the honorary member the children of the world. Nothing is unchangeable. It's up to us to put a stop on the things we don't like, stop compromising. The courage to change and to demand respect. It's about respect. Respect is at the foundation of the Golden rule. Not to do to others what you wouldn't want them to do to you. Respect is a forgotten word. There's certain things that are sacred like the earth, life in all it's form especially children. Children are the most special life of all. The most sacred. The children are the living message that we are sending to a time we will not see. Better be a healthy message and not a broken message. Respect of our relationships too. t's not because everything is permitted that it gives us the right to do whatever the fuck we want not if it means the lack of respect anyhow. Respect comes before trust. Without respect trust is impossible. Respect has to be implemented again in our lives. 
On the subject of gossiping, in judaism gossiping is highly prohibited. I hate hypocrites, people who talk behind you're back, projecting they're own flaws on you, cowards, to all of you motherfuckers you should know better.
I'm the master of my life, I have the choice to live it accordingly to my values and my beliefs and how I decide to live it concerns only me and who I love concerns only me.

About Freedom and my birthday

I haven't written for a while. My computer was broken and my bathroom in renovation for 2 months...It's my birthday today and my 2 amazing brothers got me a computer MacAir mucho love and my bathroom is beautiful and done. 

The word of this month is freedom and the honorary member of the month are the migrants. Because everyone is entitled to live in a peaceful environment where men are free to choose the life they wanna live. I've been listening a lot to the new Pharrell Williams song: Freedom. He's been doing anthem lately with happy last year and freedom this year but I love his message. Such positive vibes. I wish he would dedicate that song to all the migrants who are risking their life to be free. It's a time of awakening, a time of transformation, movement, of the worst and the best. I'm finally and officially divorced. I'm a free woman at last. It's a time of renewal with the jewish new year coming next sunday. A time of cleansing, of introspection, leaving the old to live the new. I have the feeling I have finally arrived somewhere. Of course I have arrived only to start again but nonetheless. I'm beginning to control destructive mood like in my younger year. I know I can't relapse. Because of you I walk the line. Something strange happened in my life last year the 25th of may 2014. I have no clue why it happened but it did and it made my life better. Whatever comes from it. Like a friend told me once when you receive a gift from the universe or God however you want to name it you just say thank you, Barush Hashem, Hamdoulillah. What's true love? How do you define it? Is love absolute? Yes the kind of love I'm talking about is absolute. Because the soul has no age. I always felt since I was a child that I was an old soul. That I've been on earth many times before. As a teenager I loved reading books on autistic kids. They fascinated me. I always felt on the verge. Borderliner. Not totally in. I'm talking about feelings, impressions, sensations. Living more on intuition than on plans, more on vision than on path. So freedom for all creatures for Kazhan the elephant and the migrants. It should be a world where everyone and everything have the right to live freely. 

And remember: 

Origins

If I let go of my fear and I open freely my mind I can fly very high. I use to fly so high that almost noone gave me an incentive to stay on earth. Disconnected. Wild. Les voies de Dieu sont impénétrables. Souvent je n'y comprends rien. Moi si j'y tenais mal mon rôle c'était de ni comprendre rien. No stress est ma nouvelle politique. It's all good. I'm thinking I must have done something good somewhere. I took great care of my grand father and my great aunt. I was very close to my maternal grand-mother the one who married a christian Palestinian. She was like a mother to me. Took me in twice. Loved her fourth husband Saul Cohen a Franc Maçon my confident, my mentor. When she passed away I decided to go back to judaism and my daughters with me since they were jewish by birth the same as me. No need for conversion. I asked the rabbi one question: does judaism believe in the transmutation of the soul. He said yes and I thought this was home. So when she passed away, I took care of her sister Jouji, older sister who lived the Second World War as a Hungarian jew and hid and went to camp with husband and her parents. It was the end of the war Auschwitz was taken by the Russians, no more convoy were sent, they survived. Jouji was a very strong head woman. No bullshit with Jouji. She was a tough cookie. Never had children. Only dogs and canaris all named Hansel.I stayed at the emergency with her praying that she wouldn't die but every time she came back. She passed away at 95. She was a brilliant woman very spoiled, raised by mademoiselle. Her cousin took care of her financially from the time her husband died until she passed away. Half of her life. She told me once: Never give up. I learned a lot from her. Always love older people when they're intelligent of course. Love the old people of my family. They're from a time that will never come back. 

We are all naked

“Your naked body should only belong to those who fall in love with your naked soul.”

― Charles Chaplin to his daughter Geraldine
In the absolute of course

The first step is always the hardest but then again what is there to lose...
Steve Jobs said that: in front of death you're already naked. What is there to lose? who said how it's suppose to be anyway. I think there must be a way to live outside of the box. Outside of the corporation, my way. To accept ourself is not such an easy thing sometimes. To accept ourselves fully. To let our crazyness come alive.We live in fear. Fear of rejection, fear of losing, fear born out of our ego. Because in front of death what is there to lose. We only have one life no less no more. So why not live it the way we want it. Because after all says who? Who is there to say how to live our life. There must be a place for the outsiders, the dream warriors, the soul searchers. A little place in paradise. Positive vibes only. I live in a positive world take your negativity away from me. Music is the soul vibrations. I'm a house junkie. I use to say the quest for the absolute. Is it to dream of an impossible dream, like Brel sang. Maybe but I think it's worth to try. Love is never a waste of time. Regardless of what my 16 years old daughter says. Because at the end there's something I always be able to say: thank god i'm a mother of 2 beautiful girls, angels in my life. Eternal love infinite love absolute love. The kind of love I'm talking about yes it's absolute. Birdman by Innaritu.Love that movie. Bought it. Watched it many times. In interview he said that fear was the condom of life. I kinda agree with him. With fear there's no life. He said when he was making Birdman he decided to make love and take out the condom because fear is the condom of life. Something like that. I don't know why I like that movie that much. Maybe because it talks about the meaning of life. The way it's constructed. The music. The special effects. The actors of course. The ultra realism and the fantastic mixed together. Interesting amalgam. 
After all love is there to be given not to keep for ourselves. So how is your love bank going? Have you been sharing a lot lately?
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A walk into the unknown

First t-shirts are going to djs and producers in Europe by monday the 10th of August. Edited pictures from the photoshoot by friday. Getting there slowly but surely

So why a sheep? Why a pink sheep? I was thinking of a logo for MBRTRB short for members of the tribe. The black sheep came to mind. The rebellious one the one who goes against the stream also the sheep is a placid animal hes vegan not agressive. I chose pink for practical reason it goes on black or white and also because im a girl and i see la vie en rose. 
That sheep is a reminder that you dont have to look different to be different.


The word for the month of august will be loyalty in a wide way. Loyalty towards us and towards others. I am sometimes guilty of betraying myself to please others. My Osho Horoscope says to let go of given ideas or borrowed ideas. Says Who at the end that's the real question. A friend told me once when you receive a gift all there is to say is thank you. You can't refuse a gift. Sometimes I forget to follow my heart in the names of conformity. Im an anti conformist but sometimes I get scared of my own self. I stop and I think am I completely out of my mind...Self doubt is the worst. On one hand you don't wanna be completely delusional but on the other hand you have to believe in yourself. It's a fine line. I had two amazing grand mothers, out of the ordinary. That's my lineage. So I guess the idea is to breath in breath out stay true to who I am and keep the spirit. Let's see where it goes. I try to see the big picture, put everything into perspective. But who am I to know. I don't know nothing. 
Honorary member of the month will be Kate Hudson because of her role in almost famous her freedom her good vibes and because of her beach girl life style. 

Thank you Christopher Morrison :)

First pictures of the Second photoshoot...Cant wait to see the final result :)